Out of Control

On time! BooYa!

As someone who it known for missing their flights, I am pleased to inform to inform you all, I have indeed made it to London, England! The bad news is that my next flight doesn't leave for another six hours. So I have some time.
When it comes to airports I love having time, mainly because, like I said before, I miss a lot of flights. But today I kinda wish I was short on time. Letting me remain with my head in this fog that its been in since last Saturday. With this time I am forced to reflect and process. It hurts. I miss my friend. I can't help think about when I first told Ryan that I was leaving, I was surprised to see how excited he was for me and how he wanted to know every detail. It was awesome. When I think about the hurt that my heart feels, I think of Ryan's parents and siblings and how much more painful it must be for for them. Tom, Gale, Luke, and Amanda, I love you guys, miss ya, and I'm prying for you every day! Now I want to make something clear. I didn't make this blog to mourn the death of a friend and I'm sorry if it looks that way. But Ryan's life and death has been constant thoughts. I have never mourned this hard over a lose before. I'm not trying to be dramatic, just honest.

So I'm in London! Boom Baby! It's rainy and cold. Walking through the airport I think I have been spayed with like 15 different fragrances and perfumes. I smell weird, and no it's not because I forgot my deodorant...
Apparently it is just as important to smell good as it is to look good here. This makes me think about the fragrance ads, they have all theses buff guys in speedos in a pool... what does that have to do with cologne? Aaand who where's cologne to a pool. I'm just saying...

I think that I am beginning to realize that I really am leaving my friends, home, and comfort zone for two whole months. Thoughts like, "Why did I do this?" pop into my head. That thought make me stop and think even more (I know people, I'm thinking up a storm over here!) Why did I do this?
When I break it down I really didn't do anything. No seriously! When i think about how this all came about i did nothing but just be available.

I got a phone call after returning from a trip to North Carolina to see my brother, sister (Kevin and Beth), and three nephews (Jaden, Tyler, and Karsten). The call was from Beth's cousin Amy, who I had met on the trip. She told me that she enjoyed meeting me and wanted to know if I had ever heard of a school called Capernwray. I said no, she went on to tell me that it was a Bible school in England and she thinks that I should go. "If you can find a way over there and a way to cover your expenses while your gone then we'd like to pay for your tuition."
...I'm sorry what now?!
She told me that I had been on her and her parents heart and they would like to bless me by sending me to learn about the word of God. I was overwhelmed and my first though was, UHHh YA I'll go! But then reality kicked in and I remembered that I have a full time job and a lease and a car payment, all that grown up crap. So I told her that I am so grateful for the offer but I would have to say no.
She wasn't going to give up that easy. "Just pray about it, okay?"
I agreed, hung up the phone, and said a prayer like, " God, if you want this, make it happen."

I was left with all these excesses why I couldn't/shouldn't go:

I have a full time job:
I walked into my bosses office right after the phone call and told her about the conversation that I just had with Amy. The first words out of her mouth were, "Wow that's great! when do you leave"
Aagin, I'm sorry what now?!
She told me that it would be no problem for me to take two months off and that I would have my job when I came back... How many bosses do that? Really?!

I have all these bills:
 I sent out a support email. Within three weeks I had more then enough for the trip (thank you all!!)

I have a lease on my apartment:
My lease just happened to end 15 day after I leave for school.

Like I said, I did nothing, God provided for everything! I just needed to be willing to go!

Just be willing and God will blow you away with his AMAZING plan.

 Be Present and Willing.

LIVE IT UP.

PS) I just saw a guy sneeze like 20 times in a row... it was awesome!