Getting Ready to Jump

My Chaos

I don't remember at time where I have been this exhausted! But can't stop now still have a lot to do. I'm finishing packing up the last bits of my apartment. I find it funny that I always finding myself wanting more until I have to pack or move it. That being said, packing things up this past few weeks I keep finding things that I don't need. I think that I have donated three or four trash bags of clothes this week. I need to me more grateful.

 I'm still struggling in a time of grief not only for myself but for others. I want to be here to grieve with them. Like I said in the last post I know that God is calling me to come along side certain people here and pour into them, but also calling me to go and lean more about him and his word. So as excited as I am to go on this awesome adventure,  but I'm torn when it comes to wanting to stay.  I talked to one of my sisters today and she put it simply, "When you are in a time of grief you want to be somewhere comfortable, with people who understand. These next eight weeks will probably be some of the hardest in your life."

Well Crap.


I was comforted when the song Come Away by Jesus Culture came on:

Come away with Me, Come away with Me 
It's never too late, It's not too late
It's not too late for you


I have a plan for you
I have a plan for you
It's gonna be wild
It's gonna be great
Its gonna be full of Me


Open up your heart and let Me in

That's it. That's the whole song. Simple. That's everything that I needed to hear.

He has a plan... (To better me) (Jeremiah 29:11)

It's gonna be wild... ( and difficult)

(but) It's gonna be great!

Its gonna be full of me!

That its what I want! A life full of the Lord, to be overwhelmed by His words!

SO even in the midst of loosing my buddy and being in a state grief, I WILL go, and it WILL be wild and difficult, but I know it WILL be great.

You gotta LIVE.