Forward

So last week we hosted a day for the local police and their families at the castle, and of course like everything in England right now it was Olympic themed… (I just can’t get away from it). So my job during the day was to walk around with a flaming Olympic torch with a set of human Olympic rings (People holding hula hoops) (no I’m not joking) and to ask people Olympic trivia. So as a group we ran around and they would assemble and I would hold the torch. Tyler with a torch…hmmm… So naturally I burnt off the ends of my eyebrows, eyelashes, and the front of my hair. I guess that in some way this was a blessing. With the stench of my scorched hair following me around, I don’t have to worry about impressing the ladies. Just my fantastic luck, Sorry Mom no wife this year.

I’ve been thinking about God’s plan a lot lately. There has been a lot of conversations about what is next after Capernwray. In the past I know that I have said things to the effect of, God will show me what to do, or what ever I do God’s will is will be done. But now that I think about it, I feel that that was kind of a copout statement. I know that the Lord has a plan for me but does that mean that I can just sit back and wait for something to happen? You have to work for toward whatever is next.

Before I came here I think was the first time in a long time that I felt that I had really started to grow in my walk with the Lord. class="MsoNormal" style="textn enent: .5in;">

(PS) I got to go to London! Can’t wait to tell you all about it in the next post!


(I haven't been able to get the photos yet I'll try to up load those tonight)


And thank you for the letters! Mail is like gold here! 

Prepping

Almost been 3 weeks now and I do apologize for not updating for so long! The Internet is not great to say the least.

            So nothing too embarrassing has happened since the water bottle incident, so that’s good, But just an update on that I’m having my sister send me a replacement from the states.  I did get to herd sheep today! That was an adventure. Picture me runner after a group of sheep and them running for their lives… epic.

            I have been taking so much in during our lectures that I haven’t known what to write about. The other day we broke in to groups and were asked to discuss what God is doing in our lives and then pray about it. This has never been a question that I have had trouble answering before, but I didn’t know how to answer. I had to think which was weird considering how I got here to Capernwray.

“What is God doing in my life?”

            I don’t know.  It the large scheme of things, I don’t know what God is doing right now, how he wants to use this experience. Normally I would be asking, what’s next and is there a toll road so I can get there faster. But I feel like for the first time in a long time (if ever) I am right where the Lord wants me. I don’t know how he wants me or use the knowledge that I’m getting here, But that’s ok! I feel good.

Ever since Ryan died, I feel like there has been this beautiful urgency in my life. When I say urgency I don’t mean a rush or hurry but more a shift of priorities. Asking myself, why I’m here, what I’m meant for, and what the Lord has in store for me. I’m in a stage of prepping. 

I heard an illustration yesterday about a man who was searching franticly for something while on the phone with a friend. Finally, after turning his apartment upside down, his friend asked what he had lost and he responded, “I just can’t seem to find my phone.”

I don’t feel that this prepping stage is a new phase. I have been in it for a while. Just like the man had his phone the entire time, I have been in this stage that God has been preparing me for what I’m meant to do next, and I just didn’t realized it. For a while he has been stripping me of habits, desires and in some cases even relationships. Not to mention pushing me all the way to England. So its obvious that he is moving and prepping I just don’t know what for.

So many times before I feel like I have entered similar “prepping” stages and been defensive, as if I had been doing something wrong and was being called out on what changes need to be made. (Authority is something that I struggle with, if you don’t know me very well.) (I’m working on it…) (Just don’t instruct me to work on it… I might ignore you and not do it… like I said, working on it) But this time I go onto it with a willing heart. It’s welcomed with that beautiful urgency. Making the changes that are needed and seeing that the only way up is surrender. So I look forward to taking advantage of what I’m learning here, and LIVING IT UP!